Road for the Big 3

How time flies, right?
You've been with me since 2004?
I was 15, then.

Meaning, you are turning 15 on December :)

Yes, I'm turning to the 3rd level next month.
I realized that age is a number, yet a feeling.

A feeling of realization - how am I? What did I achieve for the last 3 decades?
A roller coaster ride - you know this very well. Though lately, I've not that open anymore with you on words and photos.
It comes with the age haha!

Now, I need to focus on what matters - on what I have and build on them.
There's so much to look forward. There's so much I want to achieve and I can see myself getting them.

I'm very thankful with the Lord for everything - the good and the bad.
Blessed to have all these gifts and love. I pray for my heart's desires to come true.
That's what life exciting right?

You can't have it all - yes I know - but I can have it all for almost.
I have to be more grateful and see the brighter side of things.

Looking forward for more. Hope to update you, though :)

Queen

Two months have passed. What happened? 

I just watched now a movie called “Suddenly Seventeen” (though not my first time to watch) - it still feels the same when watching it. I can totally relate. 

Yesterday, I celebrated my 12th Anniversary with my boyfriend. Yes, 12 years. We had a good experience in Queen Elizabeth 2, and discovered new things. I honestly got excited what more if it is the real deal of cruising in a ship. 

What’s next if you will ask me? 

I know what I’m supposed to do but still not doing it. I prayed to God to give me the strength and courage. I just need to apply it.

Just now, I read my posts 12 years ago. 

I reminisced. I went back to my 17 year old self (just like in the movie). 

I was bubbly, open. I was happy and specific. 

Now? I’m 29 going 30, serious, broad, a bit happy and not sure what life will take me. 

Is this really the drill? 

Can I have those chocolates to bring back my old self? But life happens. 

Past is past. Now is the present and I have the power to make my future. God has plans for me and I know He will never fail me. 

I will and am always trust Him. 

Please pray for me. I pray for yours too. :)