Flower...

How are you? How am I?

It's been 2 months already since I last updated.

Many things happened. Many changes took place, many decisions were made.

A mixture of good and bad. 

With a tearful heart, I want to share that my Mommy Lola left us weeks ago, she was 88.

I remember when I was young, we were scared of her because she was so firm, fierce and strict. 

I didn't understand her, though I know she was fond of me since I took her name as my second name. 

I was not able to talk to her and say goodbye recently, even online because I cannot. I am weak, I may cry. 

I know she is now happy and at peace up there, no more pain. So long, our Mommy Lola. 

You made us stronger and we learned a lot from you. You are madiskarte, very generous, fashionista, a great cook, a business minded.. You are so strong. You are our pillar.

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Now, on my 30s (I'm 31 now and few more months on my birthday, I'm out of the calendar haha), I made big decisions - for my health and wealth as a gift to myself. 

I know I made the right one and no regrets. It will happen sooner or later.

I can do this! I can make them happen! Wish me luck :)