sayang na sayang Lang....

i've been Living in this worLd for 18 years now..
if you'LL ask me if there's one thing i want to change that happened in the past, i'LL say there is.

and..may i request for additionaL? because it's onLy one, it's mooooree!

yes. i shouLd not regret.
things happen for a reason and i can't have aLL.
i Learn from it. that's true. but i can't heLp myseLf.

i now know why the word "choice" or "decision" was invented.
for us to weigh things and decide what's more important.
we use our minds to think hard and heart to feeL right.

hopefuLLy, from the things that happened in my Life, i won't do the same mistakes again. who wants to regret? i hate you.

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things i did and wiLL do:
1. attended a famiLy gathering and a bLessing of a reLative's mansion in TarLac. WOW.
2. party! super fun and super eat. tsk. haha
3. defense in DSA :(
4. finaLs.
5. my 19th birthday.

chaos comes first before fun.

IMBALANCE.

i hate it when it's unfair.
i hate it when it's so biased.
i hate it when it's not right.


now i know why COLLEGE is soooooo different to highschooL.
yes, coLLege students are more mature but more "tuso".
the innocence of highschooL students cannot be seen anymore thus, it wiLL be more compLicated, it wiLL be worse.

tsk.
i hate it when it shouLd be a GROUP. yes, ONE GROUP.
but there are now two groups. no unity. no words can be heard.

and the worst part?
i'm with the group with Less importance.
why?
because i refused to do something just to go to a speciaL event on the day of the presentation.

now, i'm suffering but not regretting.
it's just unfair that this "group" has more advantages as if we can't do what they do.
i don't care if one of them wouLd read this. i just speak my mind.
i keep taLking but Levi stopped me. he knows me. the side of me who has the right reasons but wrong approach. he toLd me to speak sLowLy, not angriLy. i aLso know when i'm wrong.

gaar. but i can't stop myseLf.
tsk. sorry i can't put detaiLs. i can't name names.
i just name myseLf and Levi. gaar.

i hate it.
i reaLLy hate it.
i want it to end.

now.
as in, now.

peace and quiet.

ako Lang mag-isa rito sa bahay. nacanceL fLight ng mom, dad, kuya jb at ate ko from occ. mindoro to maniLa kahapon! tsk. ang Lungkot. pero ung isa pang batch na kasama si kuya, mamayang 10am ang uwi dito sa bahay. kaya ok na rin. hindi na maLungkot at tahimik dito sa bahay.

ganito paLa ang feeLing na maLayo ang mga parents ko sa akin. di kasi ako sanay eh. ung dad ko, pwede pa.. pero ung mom ko.. di taLaga ako sanay. tawag ako ng tawag sa kaniLa. haha.. parents' girL? XD

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maLapit na mag-october.
ibig sabihin maLapit ng mag-:

1. finaLs
2. birthday si ako
3. sembreak

o db? i'm so futuristic.
that's why my Life isn't peacefuL and quiet, it's so compLicated.

pero back to reaLity, magiging madugo ang week na ito for me.
waLa pa nga akong nasisimuLan. parang tinatamad pa ako. gustong-gusto ng katawan kong magcram e no? tsk tsk. dami kasing gagawin sa DSA namin. gaaar. groupwork naman un eh, basta tuLungan ok na.

wishes ko:
1. sana matapos ng maayos ang mga gagawin ko.
2. sana hindi ako magregret.
3. sana mataas ang grade ng makukuha ko at ng mga groupmates ko.

yeah. kaya namin to.
waLang probLemang hindi nasosoLusyonan.

MANY.

THEY'RE HOME.
yah. my kuya from dubai, my tito and tita from austraLia, & my cuz and her hubby with jayr (their chiLd) from the US were back to the PhiLippines!

i have been speaking EngLish Long now. ha! ha! ha!
it's just sad that some FiLipinos who went to foreign Lands can't speak EngLish anymore. the onLy good thing is they just understand, but then, cannot speak and write. that is one of the reasons why my beLoved country don't progress because the peopLe don't Love their own. T_T that's the sad fact.

anyway, i have been eating a Lot LateLy.
yes. a Lot. when i say a Lot, it's reaLLy a Lot!
Let my body speak for that! hahaha XD
but i'm thankfuL because not aLL peopLe wiLL experience what i'm experiencing now. there are many peopLe who are starving so i shouLd not be compLaining, thus i shouLd be gLad. :D that's why when i eat, i see to it that there are no Leftovers as possibLe. wag ng takaw-tingin.


LEARN.
APPRECIATE.
LOVE.

Learn to appreciate smaLL things and Love them with aLL your heart because smaLL things can be big if it's appreciated and Loved.

XD

i'm not so..

HAPPY.

i'm not happy.

Life isn't perfect.

and there's something/ someone who aLways ruins my day.

maybe i can't have it aLL.

aLways.

surprised.

OWKEI. hindi pa ako masanay diba?
what: 1st anniversary.
when: 06-09-08
where: pLm

1. Late pumasok. aba. 30 minutes Late na. buti waLa pa ang prof namin.
2. ayan na prof namen, waLa pa rin siya. bigLang tinawag ako, pumunta ako sa prof namin sa harap at ako raw mag-aasikaso ng dinidiscuss niya etc.
3. may naririnig akong hiyaw. "uyyy" "yikeeee" siyempre, curious ako, tingin ako sa Likod.
4. sumaLubong sa akin ang isang bouquet of fLowers na hawak hawak niya.
5. siyempre, ako naman si guLat, kiLig na kiLig! naLaman ko na Lang kinontsaba niya paLa ung prof ko kaya pareho siLang Late.

...whooooa...
for a moment, Lutang na Lutang ako.
SALAMAT yebi ko.




pero nag-uumpisa pa Lang ang aming pagdiriwang.
nyay! pinagtitinginan kami. sa Laki ba naman ng fLowers at sa ganda nito..
sabi ni Levi, ung mga babaeng napapatingin, ngumingiti. sino bang hindi? it's so sweet! :D

kain. nood movie. (2nd time pa Lang namin) kain. kain.
haha. puro paLa kami kain. masaya kasi kami sa ganoon eh!
maaga ako nakauwi pero kahit ganoon, masaya pa rin!



saLamat sa mga bumati at mga wishes niyo for us.
weeeee.
swerte ko taLaga!

super dami ng happenings!

that's why Life isn't boring.
there are so much things going on and it makes me happy and tired. haha

OWKEI.
setyembre na po.
first week pa Lang, may ceLebration na agad.
it's LEVIJEN's 1st year! WOW.
i don't expect it kaya i'm so proud! ang saya-saya kasi matamis pa rin ang aming pag-iibigan! hahaha. korni ba? senxa naman..pero seriousLy, totoo nga. that's why i'm so gratefuL that God has given me Levi.. :D
sa Sept. 06 na un! waaa, buti na Lang maaga uwian pag sabado. hehehe :D date gaLore na ito! nyay! kwento na Lang ako ah next post! abangan. (naks!)


tapos second week naman, birthday ng Mom ko! at uuwi na dito sa PhiLippines si Kuya from Dubai, 2 weeks Lang. tas dadating din ung Tita,Tito ko from AustraLia,Cuz at pamangkin ko from US dito! wow, around the worLd. kaya magkakaroon ng famiLy reunion dito! waaa, duguan na naman iLong ko nito! T_T tas kaiLangan ko na ring mag-evacuate sa room ko, Lipat ako sa guest room with Ate Jopai. hehehe, :D kaya for sure, maguLo ang mundo ko nito. sana makapag-OL pa rin.

ok. hanggang dito na Lang muna, bibitinin ko muna kayo :P